Furthermore, it is necessary to say something about individuals who are self-initiated in our Order without the guidance of the Superior, many discussions are leading to whether their Initiation is valid or not. Our stand is that Initiation is pointless without touching the aim; as the Knowledge and Conversation of the Holy Guardian Angel is the ultimate destination of the outer Order, everything beyond that is mere bureaucracy blinded by spirituality. I know a significant number of individuals who have achieved the Knowledge and Conversation without any formal affiliation to the Order, and even more those who, within their legitimate and recognized lineages, have not achieved even a mumble of that Talk. Until the Knowledge and Conversation is achieved, we are nothing but blind animals driven by instincts of hunger and survival of the species, and every tale of Initiation is empty and sad. The Superior is, therefore, the Student’s witness, the witness of the living consecration of LVX. But as long as there is an uncompromising tendency towards the light, the witness is redundant. Far from being worthless, but each of us must understand Initiation as a process that is not subject to any established rules. And if we look closely through history, the only similarity of all the great journeys is that they were all a resultant of a pure heart and a strong mind. Every worthy Initiation has the mark of willingness to go to the end at all costs. Unfortunately, most of the Initiations today have not moved any further from the beginning, and their value is mainly expressed exclusively in the amount of the fee. Initiation is not obtained, Initiation is requested. It is not there to concede, to lease, rent or sell. Initiation is demanded. And at the point when you lose yourself and everything that you are in that quest, Initiation finds and takes you by force. It will not ask nor seek permits. Yet by then, you will already be so changed, that nothing will be left to Initiate.
Moving through the Grades for some will be a search, for others a slight recall, for some third hell of the worst karmic repayment. Every Aspirant within what we call incarnation has its one natural habitat and a sphere in which he smoothly resides. There is always one Grade through which the Aspirant simply flies, without any effort. The issue the Superior needs to deal with is whether he will allow it; that is, will he use this talent of the Aspirant to deepen the Grade to the extreme, asking the talent to be compensated by increasing the criteria, or will he use a talent to make the Student enter the next Grade more rapidly? It certainly depends on the Superior, although he always has to think in accordance with his Grade and nothing else; only in this way will the circle be closed, and the A∴A∴ principle fully realized.